怕~

I am not sure what kind of words could be accurate expressions for the recent my emotions filled my mind. The word 'fear' can be translated to '怕~~' in Chinese.
Fear for getting older and weak, and then losing my body strength and eyesight to keep practicing my loving yoga, to read books, and other daily routines.
I know it very well; it is the life.
The sad period would be 10years or just a few months before going to heaven. Even though I am getting losing my smartness every day, I will continue to struggle to be brighter, more diligent, and keep reading, etc.