Feel guilty

This note was written last Tuesday night.

At last, five days of vacation has been closing now. The month of May has always given meburdens just like every Korean working mom. Alot of middle and elementary schools have long holidays from May 1st to May 5th (children's day) or even May 8th (parents' day). During those times, my children had to spend their time at home with instant or delivery food. (my housekeeper's shift begins 3 p.m.) So, last Monday, I had to ask my youngest son to comemy hospital during lunch time and we had it together at a cafeteria of my hospital in a short time. After sending him off at the loby, I got some unexplained feelings. It might be close to feeling of guilty. That kind of feeling was not the first at that time. After finishing midterm examinations, my two sons wanted to change their English academies, so they had to take a test at new academies after searching them through the Internet by themselves. Last Thursday, when I got back home late, my youngest son also just got back home after finishing his test. He explained about it excitedly without ceasing... I can not explain my feelings exactly because of limitation of my English ability. Most usual moms search academies by themselves and go along with their childrens there. And they wait until the examination is ended. However, I could not do it at all. The only thing I could do was receiving calls fromthose academies about my two sons' test results. Of course, Iwas proud of their self-reliance, but at the same time, I felt guilty as a mom.